10 years later...

Here we go ! After waiting for 10 years, we are ready to adopt ! Well, I was ready a long time ago, but life had other plans.

 We cannot have children because I had a cancer at age 28. Since then, our children are our dogs, Bouba, Stella and Penny. I love them like they are my children and that is what they are to us. But it is time now to have a human child ;o)
We are not getting any younger and now is the perfect time.
We just went trough all the difficult process of the interviews, the endless papers we needed to find, papers you never even knew existed, interviews with a social worker, loan at the bank, proving this and that, medical tests, I will not write much about it, because it is just administrative stuff... Quite boring, but oh so difficult to live thought. But having survive cancer, this was not something that scared me.

What scares me is going to Ukraine and coming back empty handed. That would be really traumatic, and I sure don't want to think about it, even if it is always in a corner of my brain. But I have to believe that it is time for us now, that God cannot take so much from me and that at the end, I will be a mother.

We are set for one or 2 children, max 7 years old. If we find one child, that child needs to be from 5 years old to 7 years old. We have the chance to have a younger one if that child has a brother or a sister.

We cannot know in advance. For now, our departure is January. Of course, more papers to fill out, more documents, waiting.. Waiting... But it is actually happening. Difficult to stop myself from buying clothes or stuff for the child as I don't know the age, the sex if it is one or two.  But I am looking of course... What kind of bed, what kind of toys...I did not buy anything. 

We are now waiting for the invitation. From Ukraine, November is to late and December... The holidays, so every thing will be closed there. Therefore, January should work.  I am making my list of what I need to bring, what to do or not to do. So much to think about especially with a very demanding full time job. 

Well, for now, that is about it. I will write more later. xoxoxo