Hopefully the last holidays without children ! Happy Holidays !

First present from Papa and Nicole :o)

Thank you Papa and Nicole for the journey albums, this is such a wonderful idea !!!  I love it !!!! Here is a picture, I have 2 of them, yay !

End of January again

Well, no leaving in December, so we are back to the end of January. This is making me go crazy for so many reasons. I had a babysitter for December for my doggies, but then I had to change to January. Then February, then back to December, now January again, I need to plan so many things, it is making my head spin.  I am guessing it is faith. Good news is that we finally have done the PART 1, of the citizenship for the children.  We cannot do the second part as we don't know the children yet. But without the Part 1, we would not have be able to go anyway.
The date for December was Nov. 29 and we got the letter yesterday, so we missed it by a few days.  So back to trying to think about everything and looking to end of January to leave.

Our current children, Bouba, Stella and Penny :o)

December ?

So, I just got a call from the adoption agency, maybe.... Maybe December ? That would be fantastic !

waiting...

Well, we are waiting. And strange like when we wait, the time goes by slowly.  I have a full time job, a house to take care of, 3 dogs, but the children are missing. They are missing for a long, long time.
Since I got cancer at age 28, I knew I could not have children. Chemo put me in menopause,  12 surgeries and radiotherapy made sure of it. I needed to survive first. Then I needed to understand that I could not carry a child, ever. The fact that I had a complete hysterectomy sealed the deal.
People tell you, so what, adopt... But adoption is not something you just do. You need to be ready. You need to be ready to adopt a child that someone else made. That will not look like you, that you will not carry. A child that will be there already for a couple of years and you missed all that. You need to be open, you need to think about it, and you need your husband to be ready too.
It took 10 years.
And we are ready, more than ready. We are waiting for that child. Or 2 ? I don't know. And I don't like, not knowing, so it is very challenging for me to just stay there and wait, not knowing what will happen.
But one thing for sure, we will go and we will do everything possible to come back with our children.

To sweet not to share

Picture says it all....